a lonely soul's story...

He's gone & would never return..
 Even she knew it,,
 but there's something that stops her for accepting it..!!

 She thinks about those days when they had a fight and just a sorry would break all the silence.But now things are different,even a million sorries can't repair the pain they have given to each other.

She thinks, thinks & thinks  why & where did every thing go so wrong that today they were like the 2 shores of a sea, which belonged to the same sea but can nva be together.


 She seems to be confused all the time,

There are times when she feels she can move on &
 Then there are times she feels living a single day without him is like a big challenge to her

There are times when she thinks she will fall in love once again &
Then there are times she falls in love again & again only with him.. There are times when she feels she can forget him & Then there are times she feels what would she do, where would she go, if he's still in her mind & heart.. Then... She hears, hears and then drowns herself in music.For she thinks music is the only thing which comforts her next to him.
She listens to "Katy Perry's 'in another life"...an old lady crying remembering those 20's days when she was with her love, and how every thing ended.. she wonders that might be her future too..
She listens to "thinking of you" how a girl looses her love and marries some other guy.singing."cz when I'm with him, I'm thinking of you"..she wonders even this could be herself in future..
She listens to Taylor swift's 'sad, beautiful, tragic,...& remembers that even 'she had a beautiful, magic love affair,, a beautiful tragic love affair'
She always tries to keep herself busy because she's scared if she pauses even for a moment, his thoughts would kill her But all her plans go vain, his thoughts haunts her no matter she's busy or doing nothing..
She cries, cries and cries at the top of her voice not knowing that he could never hear, wondering how could a single person's absence make herself feel terrible to such an extent..
The only way she comforts herself is by closing her eyes, by going to bed, a place where her mind goes to a temporary coma and no more shows flashbacks of him or them,, She wishes to go into a permanent coma one day to end this pain forever...
It's like she can neither live without him nor live with him & may be that's the reason she chooses to wander on empty roads like a Lonely Soul..!!!