Friday, October 31, 2014

Smiles & Happiness...!!



 Smiling girl they used to call me,
 Always happy they used to think about me,,

 Yes, I used to smile & I used to be happy,,,
 Fools they were who tried to copy me but failed....

 They had no idea about the reason for my smile,
 They had no idea about the reason behind my happiness...

 I had something which they don't have,,
I had something which they can never have...


 I smiled because I had you,,
I was happy because you were all mine..

 Then some day you went away,
With you went away my smiles, happiness and the reasons behind them...


 & nw I no more remember what is 'smile' and what is 'happiness'...!!!

Thursday, October 30, 2014

without realizing...!!!

I wonder why she loves him so much without realising that it's only endless pain which she Gets in return..
I wonder why she misses him so much without realising that he's no more the 'old him' whom she fell for..
I wonder why she still wishes that he belonged to her without reaising that he can never be her love once again...
I wonder why she still goes crazy for his smile  without realising that he had stolen all her smiles..
I wonder why she stillwanna hear his voice without realising that she would end up in tears if she  hears his voice...
I wonder why she wants himto come back without realising that she was the one who ended this painful relation...
I wonder why she let him stole her heart without realisingthat some day if he walks away he wont be returning it to her...
I wonder why she thinks that she cant move on without realising that he had already moved on....
I wonder why she let her heart and mind fall so much for him without realising that someday he would hurt her from his heart and remove her from his mind...
I wonder why she still wishes to see him one last time may be because its been 4 months since she last saw him and she's scared of the thought that she can never see him againatleast once in her life....

& finally i wonder why she says that she hates 'love' so much without realizing that she still loves him like an idiot..!!!


Wednesday, October 29, 2014

To a writer...

I don't knew why but I have this weird feeling that 'writers are the only best humans alive on this planet', I have dz feeling from a long time.In my view a writer can be any one,the one who writes lyrics of a song or the one who writes stories.I believe Writer is the one who knew the art of playing with words.I jz wana dedicate something to all of those writers, the one whose writings I have read and the one whom I have to read...to every 1 ..dz z jz a small token of love for u all....hope u accept it...;-)
  You write what i love, or should i say its the magic of your words which made me fall in love with what you write...
  you write lyrics of songs which touch my heart...
  You write reviews which  introduce new books & movies to me..
  You write love stories which have been my secret fantasies..
  You write humour which make me laugh..
  You write quotes which describe what is life in a single line..
  You write motivating books and articles which always inspire me..
  You write blogs which help me learn new things,make new friends & which are my only company during my loneliness..
  You write news which help me stay connected to this world...
  You write information books which have all the information at one place so that I don't need to waste my time searching for different topics in different places...
You wrote history which made me know about the olden days, olden culture
You wrote vedas which taught me what is life..
you wrote bible,quran,ramayana which taught me the greatness of god...
You write fiction which always keeps me entertained...
You write, you write and you write....!!!
 
many more things I wanna say, but even this post won't be enough I guess..
  U writers think you write, but you actually rule...!!
  You run this world, without you this world can't run a single day.!!
B proud to be a writer & keep writing..you people have a very special place not only In my heart but in the hearts of Many other readers like me..!!!!

Monday, October 27, 2014

Perfect title

Hello guys,, I knew I have been changing my bog title from the day I started writing.Well, I was in search of the perfect title and today I have got it.As you knew my last title was 'dhoz random thoughts' I felt like my blog is much more than dhoz random thoughts, it's about my life Vch I write here.and that's the reason I changed it to 'life of a Lonely soul',,, lonely soul because in this journey of life many people promised me that they would never leave me alone but finally I'm here lonely though I have many friends.I promise you all this one is the last and I would never change it again.I knew you are those people who don't promise to leave me alone but make sure I'm nt feeling alone by staying connected to me through my blog.
Well, even I'm nt perfect guys.People hurted me even I hurted people.But today life has taught me it's actually meaning.I just wanna share every thing with you so that you don't make the mistakes I did..Give me a little portion of your life(your time, by staying connected to me through my blog) I promise you I'll keep you in my heart forever..                
                 With lots of love
                      Pari ♥♥♥

Her story..!!

She looked into mirror
  Traces of makeup, dried lips, kohl spread around her teary eyes, undone & messy hair was all she could see..

She looked around her room
  A big teddy bear, few love letters, a ring, photos of him & her when they were together, dried red roses were all she could see,they were the presents he gave her when they were together...

She closed her eyes
  A boy and girl holding hands, smiling, cracking jokes, laughing, seeing dreams was all she could see.She realised that the girl was herself and the boy was him...

She opened her eyes
 She could see
 A girl with scars on her hands,
A girl whom every one hurted & changed her to a girl who hurts others,,
A girl to whom every one lied and changed her to a liar,,
A girl whose dreams were shattered and then she learnt to destroy others dreams,,
A girl whose heart was broken and finally she learnt the art of breaking others heart,,
A girl who was 'a good girl' once upon a time but finally was changed to a 'bitch',,
A girl who was smiling on outside but was dying inside,,
A girl who was lost and was waiting for him to come and find her,,    before she closes her eyes forever...!!!
    

Sunday, October 26, 2014

Shattered dreams..!!

I saw dreams, dreams of you, dreams of us...♥

Every time I saw a couple,I was sad, Sad that being in so much love with each other we never get to hang out like them because you stay miles away from me,,,
  Then I dreamed that someday we would stay together in our home ♥♥

Every time It rained I felt like to run to you, hold your hands and walk with you in the rain but you were miles away from me,,
Then I dreamed that someday we will be walking in that beautiful rain when all other people will be under their umbrellas♥♥♥

Every night I went to bed, I wanted you to be beside me,wanted to hold your hands and talk to you the whole night instead of sleeping but we were on different beds and in different cities,,
Then I dreamed that someday we would be on the same bed and have endless conversations holding hands♥♥♥

Every year when it was your birthday, my birthday I wanted to celebrate it, cut the cake with you but you were miles away from me,,
Then I dreamed that someday we would cut our cake together and celebrate our love♥♥♥

Everytime you were sick, I wanted to take you to the doctor by myself and take Care of you but you were miles away from me,,,
  Then I dreamed that someday I would be with and make sure you never get sick ♥♥♥

Everytime I thought of you, I felt like to see you but you were miles away from me all I could do was to to look at your photos and talk to them,,
  Then I dreamed that someday when I miss you all I have to is dial your number and I could see you in minutes♥♥♥

The distance was never a trouble for me, because I believed my love was true, our love was true,
I believed that if not today someday all my dreams would turn to reality for sure,,

I didnt realise how idiot i was, i never thought that some day life would throw us on different paths.now that you have choosen another path, the distance between us has further became even more and I have realised the reality that 'all my dreams are gonna be only dreams, shattered dreams'

Saturday, October 25, 2014

How could...????

How could we change to you and me??
How could our dreams change to your dreams and my dreams?
How could our life change to your life and my life??
How could our world change to your world and my world?
How could our problems change to your problems and my problems?
How could two people who were in love change to two strangers who knew everything about each other?
How could every thing change so much??
How could...???
       How could..???
            How could..??

So many questions...but no  answers for any one..!!

There are 3 things in world which have no guarantee..
Life, China mobiles and the most temporary one 'LOVE'.

Someone said 'Dont fall in love, fall from a bridge it hurts less,,, I wish I had known this earlier..!!

& nw that I have already fallen,,, all I have is 'broken promises,haunting memories & endless pain'